Where to from here?
Nothing has improved since October, if anything things got far worse. I don’t think I’ve ever hated my body as much as I currently do. A dramatic statement maybe, but it is what it is. I have a lot of work to do to get back to more of a body-positive mindset, that’s for sure.
Fresh starts, and all that jazz
Between peri-menopause, not looking after myself, and also not caring enough to do so, I’ve gained a shit tonne of weight and I feel awful. We’re up in Auckland for Labour Weekend and while out shopping today, I caught a side-on glimpse of myself. I wasn’t expecting to like what I saw, but I stopped what I was doing and just wanted to cry. I looked like a gobstopper on legs. So round.
I Didn’t Look Up At The Moon Tonight
So, the hubbs has been away for 2 weeks. I have plenty of friends who’s partners go away for work (or pleasure) for longer all the time, and they get through, I know that. But in over 23 years together, we’ve never been apart for more than a week.
He comes home in just over 24 hours and to see we’ve missed him would be a massive understatement, but we’ve gotten by, school holidays and all.
NZ Travel: Athenree Beach House
Back in March I headed off on a “working weekend”. Two nights away from home with my diary, my laptop and a whole lot of enthusiasm.
I used to do this more often, but the last couple of years I’ve not done it at all, and I know I always get so much done with no distractions.
What Would You Go Back And Say To 15-Year-Old You?
Running late at night, mentally screaming "ball dress, ball dress, ball dress" and not eating anywhere near enough so that you can look good in your ball gown for a boy? No boy is worth that punishment
What Would 15 Year Old Me Say To Now-Me?
15 year old me was pretty sulky. I've often been reminded of how miserable I was, and how much I disliked where we lived and hated the world but no, I was just a typical 15-year-old with 15-year-old "problems".
Family Holiday - Tirohanga Beach Motor Camp
We just got back from 4 nights down the coast at Tirohanga Beach Motor Camp. Just past Opotiki, we thought we would have no luck finding somewhere under 2 hours from home (Tauranga) that was affordable, family friendly and allowed dogs over New Years.
Why I Started Running At 104kg
But I was sick of feeling like a sloth. Don't get me wrong, sloths may well be my spirit animal and I love them, but that didn't mean I enjoyed feeling like one. Everything hurt, I had NO energy, and I really didn't like myself very much at all.
Not A Fabulous Week
Massive weekend for our daughters dance show weekend - that actually all went smoothly and besides the dancers dropping like flies with a gastro bug, we got through that unscathed and happy to get to dance. Winning, right?
Different Kids, Different Grief Processes
May as well kick this new website off with a heart wrencher